THE STEROIDS FIVE DAY COURSE

When I got back the results of urine test I was clear and therefore could start taking the steroids. Would they work I wondered and what effect would they have? Numerous people had told me I would feel great because of the steroids, but was their 'feeling great' the same as my 'feeling great'?


Day one and I don't feel any different. Was I expecting too much?

I had been told that I must take the steroids before 9.30a.m. or they would stop me sleeping that night but the only effect I felt at first was not being able to sleep.
I decided the steroids are given to people such as me that don't have a serious enough reaction to the 'You've got MS' statement. They bombard you with information that goes right over your head then give you a week to digest it. The next stage is steroids in high doses that not only taste vile but are difficult to swallow when the throat isn't working properly. Because of the high dosage it also causes emotional instability, then the MS nurses visit and throw even more information at you such as the complete destruction of the immune system by the therapy drugs and steroids therefore need to have innoculations against viruses such as influenza and swine flu also the implications of having a healthy diet - no out of date food or insanitary conditions - being told that something that gives a healthy person stomach ache could be really serious for me.
The seriousness of it all and the lifestyle changes needed really begin to sink in, and people who have grasped the seriousness way ahead of me seem to pity me and I am slowly getting there. Its not just a balance, cognitive and speech problems it impinges on everything. I am not allowed to go the hospital [too many infectious people around] unless it is necessary i.e. being used as a pin cushion or having the operation for the catheter fitted because my bladder is getting mixed messages from my brain and so to empty my bladder down to a 'comfortable' level it's totally dependent on a type of gravity powered overflow method. Due to the brain message defect my rectal muscles don't work properly so I can't risk diahorrea or constipation, when I need to empty my bowels I just have to sit there and allow it do it in its time. And I thought my major problem was my lack of co-ordination and balance whenever I change direction, or not being able to do anything else whilst walking e.g. desperate for that coffee or that cold drink but I must remember I have to sit first before I can get a decent hand mouth co-ordination and not end up wearing the drink on the outside rather than being a nice sensation on the inside!
After a few days I did feel better physically though but have been warned not to try and catch up or do too much because when I have finished the course the 'fitness' will disappear in a flash and if I've done too much whilst feeling 'fit' I will suffer at this point, we shall see. However it is nice being able to watch programmes after 9pm.